Oh dear... oh dear... the reason for not having a third ‘oh dear’ is because our blogs were not marked, so if you’re not in for hearing a huge rant from me please leave this blog now!
You maybe have guessed it; I did worse than my realistic prediction on the assessment. Yet again the harsh reality as I like to call it has slapped me in the face, not only that but it has kicked me while I’m down again to.
To start off, Game Production... well I said in my last entry that wasn’t hoping for a really good grade due to the lack of personal work which would let me down. There’s a million and one things wrong with my treasure chest and trash projects. It’s all pretty much down to detail with the geometry and the specular and normal maps and the finished outcomes not resembling the references. I guess in that sense we really don’t have any leeway in Imagineering in our work, which I thought we could do. One thing that sticks out is how in my design document I have apparently said I thought that both the treasure chest and trash projects were challenging and difficult. I remember saying that I thought maybe the legs to the treasure COULD have been challenging as I have no experience in using the pelt mapping modifier in max and I thought it COULD have been difficult...
As for the trash box project I said that this project seems a little too easy, because we’re basically just modelling boxes, I mean what’s so difficult about that? I said that I wanted to ADD a bit of COMPLEXITY to the project because it just seems too easy... in which I went about it by doing things like not making the bin square, by not just modelling a box, make it so it’s bending and worn etc but that’s the only thing I could think of to be honest. My shapes are ‘rudimentary and crude’ well okay I just wanted to get the models done without using unnecessary triangles, isn’t the whole point to be as low poly as you can get? Basically I need to just add more detail, my overall mark was 35 which is the exact score I got last year and failed the module, I’m not far off though to say I knew I wasn’t going to get a really good grade.
Visual design... well as I’ve been saying I’m finding the time to do extra but what pisses me off is that the personal work that I’ve done was NOT taken into account at the assessment. I failed because I haven’t completed all the work given to us, I know that but it would have been nice if maybe my work could have been looked at and not just scanned through briefly. Again like the previous assessment I’ve been told that I’ve improved and again done a lot MORE yet my grade remains the same. What pisses me off even more is the fact that it’s NOT marked properly...
A brief scan through our work and line drawn the middle of the inadequate box. The same old story as last time. I’m not down about it though; I actually smiled when I saw it, I’m use to it...
I mean thing is, okay so I’m inadequate even though I’ve given it a 110%, but it’s the fact that how on a brief scan of my work can you assume my research, technical skill, artistic judgement and my engagement and attendance are inadequate to? What to me is a CLEAR OUTSTANDING example or poor marking is the fact my attendance is inadequate, even though I’ve NOT missed a SINGLE class...
Okay so maybe it’s based on half attendance and half engagement, but if by what it says is based on that then I know for a fact it’s a complete lie. So maybe don’t like to engage with other during class, I’ve always been that way, and who says you have to have engagement, it’s my life and my life choice, if I don’t want to then why should that effect my education? The point is if it’s based half on engagement and half attendance then I should be at ATLEAST a good on the feedback sheet?
I don’t what specifically sure what is meant my relevance , and I don’t know about technical skill or what others think of my Artistic judgement but attendance FOR SURE SHOULD be at least better than inadequate.
The one thing that REALLY confused me and pissed me off was that the first thing I was told in my visual design review was, and I quote ‘I know you’re struggling’................................
Who said that they know I’m struggling? I’m not struggling at all... I don’t feel like I am and have never said OR felt like I am this whole first semester... I don’t honestly know where that’s come from at all... It is if anything a FALSE assumption of me and as if it’s made to make me feel worse about the work I’m producing? Not to name any names but one of my close friends was also told the same thing? Where is this struggling thing come from all of a sudden? NOT only that but to be told that visual design is NOT my strongest part of the course and then give me a bad grade? It’s as if they were trying to make me feel depressed...
I did NOT pay all this money to come to University for people to sit there and make FASLE assumptions of me and tell me my attendance and even my work relevance is ‘inadequate’ when I know that it’s NOT. I came to get a degree and to hopefully one day achieve the dream job I’d like, like everyone else. It’s out of order.















